The Balance Journey (Day 18)

Today was bad. Today was climb back into bed and start over bad.Today decided to knock me out in a one-two punch.

Today also taught me a valuable lesson on my journey.

“How?”, you might ask. Today reminded me that good days require bad days. Everything gets balanced. Everything! I’m learning that the hard way some days. Today felt a lot like the rainy day I wrote about a few days ago. Today was emotionally a very gray, cold, cloudy day. Which means that soon that emotional sun is going to come out and things will look brighter. It also means the emotional rain was something I needed to experience. I will grow from this experience.

Today was another stepping stone in my personal growth. I did have a meltdown. (I’m famous for meltdowns. I’m too high-strung and freak out over little things.) I had my pity party. Today’s pity party was drastically shorter than normal though.

I’ve read that it’s important to feel whatever it is that you’re feeling. Give those emotions the outlet they need.

As I was venting talking to my boyfriend, I realized some of what I was feeling was anger over the way I had been treated and grief that I had lost my faith and trust in the person who treated me so unjustly. And yes, I know, life isn’t fair. I don’t expect life to be fair, but I do expect other people to be fair. Sorry, soapbox moment, there.

Once I realized exactly why I was crying, it was so much easier to let the hurt and grief go away. Logic got to come to the party. Logic got to override my emotions and say that I know what the right response to the situation is. The right response is to choose to walk away.

You may think that’s drastic; you may not. But people who don’t know right from wrong are not people who should be in my life. I get the choice of who I associate with and I will not associate with liars and unethical people. You are who you associate with, and I do not want to be known as an unethical liar.

I want to leave you with a picture one of my Facebook friends recently posted. Be a light. Be different. Be change. I’ve posted it before, and it’s probably going to become my closing tag line but Gandhi’s quote is the best: Be the change you wish to see in the world.

 

The Balance Journey (Day 13)

I’m finding it very hard to write right now because I’m fascinated by the rain falling. Most people find the rain depressing. It’s cold, wet, gray and cloudy and they just don’t like that.

I love the rain. I love the smell in the air while it’s falling. I love the whisper of a soft spring rain. I love the roar of a thunderstorm when it pounds on the walls, windows and ground. I love the cool breezes that come with the summer rains.

But what I love even more happens after the rain stops. The clouds part, the sun comes out and all the colors seem brighter. The grass and trees sparkle in the light. Everything grows a little faster (unfortunately, this means the weeds, too).

Nature shows us how important balance is. We wouldn’t have green, growing plants without rain. We couldn’t survive without water. We also can’t live without the sun.

I’m learning to love both sides of balance but in this case, the balance in nature is one of the most amazing things about our world.